Crests and troughs

After a hiatus am back. 

Should I say there was a lull in life or should I say there was so much happening that I didn't have time to assimilate it all ? Both are true and false, depending on my mood on that day ! 

So having coming out of this ambivalence (or have I, really ?!), I feel its time to write again. 

Things have changed and I have changed, and if its for the better or worse, only time will tell. 

Its been two years since we returned from Australia but seems much longer. 

The rhythm of Australia life was hard to get over and life in India is always eventful, new scenarios, new issues and challenges every other day. It was irritating at first but I have come to enjoy them now and can't imagine a life without these; Australian life seems very bland compared to the spice of Indian life. 

Some days things seem to be happening on the career front, but the pace is so slow, I can hardly realize the change and it frustrates me. Everything that happens to us is for a purpose and that purpose is usually understood after a long gap,  when one looks back at the years as a consolidated whole. 

Am thinking this period is a flux too and am trying to understand, in vain, a process that is still in the making. Give it time I tell myself ..and then contradict myself by saying "There is NO time" ! 

As I write I realize, articulating confusion also needs some amount of clarity and writing it down somehow takes out the edge; a therapeutic experience no less, to be able to type away while also trying to structure random thoughts into words and sentences. 

Having to post it though is scary, for am at the risk of being judged and that's a risk am ready to take now, as the years have matured me.